What I Should Be Doing At 1:35 AM...

...Is sleeping soundly.  
 
Not.  Happening.
 
So.
 
I was going to post a review of this AMAZING book I just finished last night except that I may have had a glass(bottle)of wine and cannot currently form a coherent sentence to save my life.  And I have all these quotes I want to find to further emphasize the AMAZINGNESS of the book I just finished so I need to do that when the words aren't dancing across the page before my eyes.  Weird that I can still type this, I know...
 
Anyway.
 
A couple of other things.  
It occurs to me that perhaps my lack of discipline has something to do with this:
 

 
This?  Is my workspace.  Everyone has posted a picture of their workspace, and now I'm posting mine.  
Please, let me elaborate on the items in said workspace:
 
1. The AMAZING book I just finished, which I will review when I am fully sober and full of AMAZING quotes.
 
2. The 3 books I started reading today, all at once, stacked one on top of the other for my viewing pleasure.
 
3. 2 drinks to fulfill my inability to commit to any one thing in my life.  A glass of wine and a bottle of water.  (I understand that this actually makes sense, but an hour ago, a cup of hot tea also sat beside the computer)
 
4. Earbuds, memory sticks, cough drops, chapstick, ibuprofen, CDs, the Target bag which earlier tonight held my new book and new movie, pens, makeup, remote controls, a notebook and sticky notes for my storyboard(not pictured).
 
5. Yummy smelling candle because I'm pretty sure something has died in my refrigerator except that I can't find it and I can't very well smell EVERYTHING in the fridge because what happens if I find the source of the dead smelling thing and it's so horrendous I actually barf which I am NOT cool with, so I just light candles in every room on the nights I take things out of the refrigerator.
 
6. My cell phone in case a boy calls.  ;)  Or just anyone calls.  Because I've given up on men.(Boys)
 
7. Perhaps the most important, my laptop, where I create things that I am not disciplined enough to finish.  :\
 
8. My floor cushion.  This cushion, believe it or not, boys, is NOT a cat bed.  I can't even begin to tell you how many boys think I store a cat bed beside my coffee table(yes, it's a huge clock, yes it works)which, you know, totally makes sense since I have NO cat.  This is where I park my behind when the discipline takes hold.
 
I hope you enjoy my workspace.  Because I do.  Even though my butt falls asleep after about 20 minutes and the TV is perfectly situated right above the computer for maximum viewing, and I don't have much space for my multiple beverages and I'm always afraid I'm going to spill on my computer...
 
Stay tuned for my review of the AMAZING book I just finished.  I believe I'm a little behind on its release date, but please, people, let's keep in mind that I'm UNEMPLOYED and looking for a sugar daddy and can't always keep up on the awesome books out there.  But I'm trying.
 
And if you know of any sugar daddies...well.
 
Just kidding!
 
Does anyone else out there have ridiculously messy workspaces, or am I alone??

Forever Fear

I've noticed something about myself recently.



I'm a commitment-phobe.
And I don't just mean with my relationships. Although that's a definite problem, too.

Thinking about my day-to-day, I've realized:

1. I don't have MUST-SEE-TV. I have 2 shows I love but I always miss them. Why? Because there's always something else going on and I can't make myself sit at home for any length of time to watch them. This also means I zone out when everyone is talking about said shows. Not fun.

2. I ALWAYS have at least 3 drinks within arm's reach. Usually water, iced tea, and hot tea. Or coffee. Because what if while I'm drinking my hot tea, I get too warm and I need something cold? How long does it take to finish a drink and move on to the next? Not long. And yet I can't handle it.

3. I have about 4 books I'm currently reading. I always have another option. This is an expensive habit. Perhaps I should think about that library card...

4. I have yet to make it past a second date without getting that twitchy, panicky feeling. What if there's someone better out there, someone with more in common with me? As of late, I've actually had my pick out of several men and I ran screaming in the opposite direction. Isn't this every girl's dream??? Not mine.

5. I've finished writing one book in my life. My ideas change with the season and although each story has huge potential(in my opinion!), I can't seem to finish writing one without moving on to another which "might" have a better chance of publication. I understand the need for discipline in my writing schedule and for writing down future ideas to leave them simmering on the backburner. I just can't seem to make it happen.

I'm not sure where this fear of commitment came from, but I do know it's something that needs to be rectified. I'll never make it anywhere in life if I'm always shoving away the Eh's before I've attempted to make them Ah's.

I suppose the easiest thing to start with is my drink collection. Today, I vow to finish one whole drink before pouring another! ;)

I want to change my writing habits for good, to focus on one thing at a time to make it the best it can be. I'll deal with the other big stuff later!

So I ask, have any of you dealt with this before? And what did you do to fix it?

T is for...Tea!

Because tea fixes everything, in my opinion.

Upset stomach?



I highly recommend mint tea. Not only is it yummy, but the peppermint soothes the icky feeling.

Bad day at work?



Pretty much any kind of tea helps with that, but I prefer black tea.

Super hot day outside and need immediate refreshment?



Iced tea. Nuff said.

Can't sleep?



Sleepytime tea. Mmmm yum.

Heading south?



You better specify if you DON'T want sweet tea. Because that's what you're going to get! And it's goooood when made by a true southerner. :) (Shoutout to my special GA friends!)

So the next time you need a beverage of any kind, give it a try! There's something for everyone.

S is for....Shopping!

I'm not your stereotypical girl. I hate Lifetime, despise dresses, and really just can't stand shopping.

UNLESS...








I've recently developed an obsession with all things Guess. Shoes and handbags, to be exact. Perhaps this is a problem considering I am also unemployed.

Also? I'm pretty sure Guess is a gateway drug to....




Donations, anyone?

R is for....

Robert Loggia.

O is for 'Oh my God, it's Robert Loggia'.

I adore Family Guy. It's one of my weird 'things'. I can't sleep if I haven't watched the show from the comfort of my couch(or any couch, really). Yes, strange.
I have a few favorite moments and when I first read about the A to Z challenge, the VERY FIRST THING I thought of was 'R is for Robert Loggia'.
I even wrote it on a post it note so I would not forget to make that my R day post.

So without further adieu...here's some Robert Loggia for ya.




My favorite part of this clip? 'Space'.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Funny.

Q is for...Quiet

I hate the silence. If it's too quiet, my ears start to ring and I go a little stir crazy. This is especially troublesome given the fact that I live alone.

So usually you will find me with headphones in or the TV on, or sometimes both!
The music in my car will be loud, partly because I love to sing loudly and partly because I can't stand it any other way.

I don't like awkward silences. I need to be having a conversation with whomever I'm sitting with or I just get annoyed. So those friends who call just to call and listen to you breathe over the phone?? Please text me, thanks.

Although I can't concentrate if music is playing while I'm writing, I need to have some kind of background noise which usually means the TV is on low so that there is a constant hum around me. Weird? Perhaps.

This goes hand in hand with white walls. Painted walls, no quiet. I guess it has to do with my personality which is definitely loud.

Anyone else love the noises of the world more than the quiet??

P is for....PROCRASTINATION AND ALL THINGS EVIL

Because really, procrastination IS evil.




It is my second day off work, I have made my writing station, I have hot tea, sweet tea, chocolate, a notebook and a pen....and I'm ready to write.

But then I realized I had a story that could fit into 2 two genres....one of which is fantasy which I want to write. But I don't want to always write it so...perhaps I'll keep it realistic. But I JUST DON'T KNOW!!!! (whiny tone here)




But then I realized I wasn't wearing the clothes I wanted to wear. So I changed.

But then I realized the show on TV was annoying. So I channel surfed until I found something pleasant, if not distracting.

But then I realized I hadn't uploaded the pictures off my camera in WEEKS! so of course I had to do so. And I just realized I haven't put them on facebook yet. Hmm.

But then I realized I hadn't made a blog entry for P today. So I had to sit here and think of words starting with P.

I came up with procrastination.

Irony.