Sunday, January 2, 2011

2nd Annual No Kiss Blogfest!!

I'm late. SO late. But here I am, with 8 minutes to spare before the No Kiss Blogfest officially ends.
This also means I'm late to read everyone else's entries, but I can't WAIT to get started!




To read all of the amazing scenes, head over to Frankie's page and check them out!

Until then...here's mine. Completely unedited, and completely new for me. I've never written from a guy's point of view, but I can kind of relate to this....so don't be too hard on me!





Her name glowed from my cell, tempting me to send the stupid text message. It was just a question, nothing suggestive. Well, given the time, I supposed it would seem suggestive. Midnight wasn’t the time to send a friendly message.

But there it was, typed out, waiting for a whole hour while I built up the courage to hit the Send button.

Liquid courage. I stared at the bill in front of me, almost fifty bucks worth of beer and shots. My buddy Steve sat beside me, his drunk grin in full force tonight. Hell, I was pretty messed up myself. I wasn’t sure why, but I could never just make the damn call. Something about her…

“Mike, dude,” Steve stage-whispered. He leaned over the barstool so that his nose was nearly touching mine. “See those chicks over there? Let’s go.”

I glanced over his shoulder at the two women throwing darts across the bar. They were cute, sure. But they weren’t her.

I shook my head and focused back on my phone. Without another thought, I hit the send button. There. Done. A simple question: ‘What are you doing?’

She answered right away and I hid a smile. I sometimes wondered if she waited around for my text or if it was all in my head. I read her short answer: ‘Nada. You?’

I sucked in a breath, contemplating how to ask the major question. I wanted to see her. It was nothing new. It was how our relationship had been working for months now. She always came to get me, we always spent the night together, an agonizing night of cuddling and nothing more. I wasn’t sure what we were waiting for, but we hadn’t even kissed yet. Maybe tonight…

Her apartment was warm and smelled like Christmas, a combination of freshly baked cookies and pine trees. I would never admit it out loud, but her tiny apartment felt more like home to me than my own. She felt like home.

“Thanks for picking me up,” I said, kicking my shoes off in the corner and shrugging my jacket off. I tossed it over hers on one of the kitchen chairs.

Jane turned to grin at me, her green eyes rolling good naturedly. She was used to my late night texts to be picked up at the bar. Damn. I needed to learn how to be sober around her. I could barely function with her in the same room.

I watched her flit around, handing me a cold beer, tossing her shoulder length blonde hair over her shoulder as she leaned into her refrigerator for the glass of wine she kept cold while out to pick me up.

We did what we always did: watched TV, joked about stupid shows, reminisced about our childhoods, and delved into serious topics like what we wanted for our futures.

And then we were both yawning and I knew it was time for bed. A wave of terror swept over me, nerves about the moment that lay before me. I had to do it. This time, I had to make the move. Why did I have to suck at making the first move?

I undressed quickly while she was in the bathroom, making sure I was already under the covers so that nothing…ahem…gave me away as to how I was feeling right now.

She smiled when she came into the room, the same teasing grin she always gave, like I was a little kid or something. I wish I knew what that meant.

She didn’t undress until the lights were off, but I already knew she would be wearing nothing but a t-shirt and panties once she joined me under the blankets.

Despite the warmth of the room, I was shivering. She did this to me. I couldn’t even keep it from her, seeing as how the whole bed had to shake right along with me. Not to mention I couldn’t be away from her for even a second when we were alone in the dark, the silence around us deafening, reminding us of the huge elephant in the room.

She snuggled under the covers and before I could shift towards her, she propped herself up on one elbow and cocked her head at me. “Are you cold?”

I nodded, embarrassed. No, I wasn’t cold. Damn it.

Without hesitating, she rested her head against my chest and wrapped herself around me, her legs intertwined with mine, her arm rubbing mine gently.

I could feel my breathing pick up and I was sure she could hear my heart about to explode from my chest.

She moved her head and suddenly her warm breath was against my neck, sliding up to my ear.

Oh, God.

Did she know what she was doing to me?

I’d been staring at her lips for months now, wondering how they would feel against mine, if they would taste like the minty gloss she constantly applied. Months passing her office, pretending not to look as I walked by but always aware of her.

She was one of my best friends. I had no idea how to move things to the next level, even if the position we put ourselves in all the time suggested she felt the same way.

I lowered my chin so that her breath hit my mouth rather than my ear…that was way too much for me to handle.

“Mike?” Her voice was hushed and I could feel her heartbeat quicken.

This was it. She was exactly where I was. She wanted me. I wanted her. And I was pretty sure she was going to make the first move and I’d be home free.

“Yeah,” I replied, tightening my grip on her.

Her fingers lazily caressed my side, sending chills all through my body.

I moved my head closer to hers, my mouth inches away from capturing those lips with mine.

She caught her breath…and then sighed. “Never mind,” she said, disappointment pouring from her whole being.

Wait a second.

Cuddling? Check.

Heavy breathing? Check.

Mouths almost joined? CHECK!!

My sigh echoed hers. Well. She didn’t do it. And I officially lost my nerve after that.

Jane rubbed my arm and lifted her head. She smiled softly at me in the dark, her eyes twinkling from the moonlight through the window. “Thanks for being here,” she said, kissing me on the cheek.

A cheek kiss??

Ugh. I tried to smile back but it came out a grimace. “No prob,” I said, feeling like a complete ass.

She laid her head back on my chest and I closed my eyes.

Maybe next time…






Sigh...I really hope that someday, Mike makes the move. Because Jane certainly can't wait. ;)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Merry Christmas! or I Need A Happy Pill



Two posts in one week! Merry Christmas, everyone! Haha.
It's been awesome meeting so many people through the Be Jolly By Golly Blogfest and I still haven't finished going through them all! It's part of my Sunday plan.

I'm writing today for two reasons:

1. It's Christmas and I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend full of love, magic, and surprises.

2. My father.

Today is the third anniversary of my dad's death. I've kind of been a nervous wreck all day today and I thought it would help me feel a little better if I wrote it down.

Without sharing all of the dirty details, I'll just say that the loss of my father has made me see the entire world differently. By the end of his life, we weren't close and I was lucky to see him on Christmas Eve each year. I was so hurt by the path he chose for himself, I wished for nothing but his unhappiness. I never wanted to see him again and I'm ashamed to admit that I once said I wouldn't be bothered if he died.

And then he did.

My whole world turned upside down when I got the phone call. I guess we're all one phone call from our knees, right? (Yes, I stole that. :)

For years, I knew I had wanted to write a story that centered on my father's life. I had something to say and I was going to say it. I've been trying to come up with the perfect plot ever since.
My story for NaNo was the first time I had really delved into any sort of decent plotline and now that it's over, I have a million ideas to make it even better.

I may not be over his death yet, but losing my father has certainly helped me find a part of myself. His choices have made me stronger and have pushed me to realize my dream.
He is my inspiration and for that, I am grateful. I look forward to a new year of writing and discovering myself and what I am capable of. Hopefully you'll all be able to read his story very soon.

Sorry for the somber tone of what was originally going to be an upbeat post! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Be Jolly By Golly!!


It's time for the Be Jolly By Golly Blogfest and I'm THRILLED because it's been so long since I've had the chance to partake in any sort of blogfest. And what's better than one so Christmasy??

Check out Jen's page to see all entries. So many people have signed up which means NO WORK will be done on Monday!

The only real tradition my family shares each and every year is cookies. My mom makes hundreds of cookies and since I've been on my own, I try to do the same even though I'm nowhere near her assortment and I usually make pretty much the same things she does...
We always put up our trees the weekend before Thanksgiving just to get in the spirit a little sooner.
My own tradition? I shop too late, wrap too late(and so so very badly)and rush too much. But it makes me happy, so what the hey, right?

I don't have a special drink I make, so I scoured the internet to find something fairly simple to do and came up with this:

Noel Spritzer
Found on the Betty Crocker website and super simple. And it involves my BFF, wine. :)




2 cups dry white wine(I used Chardonnay)
1 cup Cranberry-Apple juice
1 cup sparkling water(I had to skip this...see picture below)

Mix and add apple slices or fresh mint sprigs.

A simple spritzer and SO good!

But...if you want to chill the sparkling water in a hurry, make sure not to forget it in the freezer!!



My favorite cookie to bake? Okay, friends, I need you all to lean in and pinkie swear you can keep this a secret. I make the BEST chocolate chip cookies. It's been discussed amongst everyone I know and voted on.
Here's the secret:
Buy Nestle semi-sweet chocolate chips.
Follow the directions.
BUT!
Add a box of instant vanilla Jello pudding to the flour mixture and when you mix everything together, make sure it's as smooth as a baby's bottom. No joke. If you don't mix it almost TOO much, the cookies turn out hard, even if you underbake them.
Next....underbake them! Just when the edges start to brown(more of a golden color)take them out.
I know plenty of people do the pudding, but if you don't do it right, it just isn't as good.
Enjoy!

As for my decorations, I'm still not where I want to be. I'm in a small one bedroom apartment so I have to make-do.
Presenting my favorites:



My teeny tree and my Christmas pillow which is so cute.



Part of my collection of Christmas trees



Some more stuff.



Little buddy. :)

And for some fun for you, check out this website where I get a million cookie ideas!

And now, I'm going to relax with a glass of wine before bed. Happy tradition-making!

Friday, December 10, 2010

In Which I Gush

A couple things today.
First and most important is this blog.
I'm getting veeeeerrrrry near one hundred followers which is beyond exciting to me and I think I should do some kind of contest, but while I ponder that, it crossed my mind that I'm such an infrequent blogger and who wants to follow someone so unreliable?

So. With my schedule, I know it would be silly to try to post something everyday or even have a Monday, Wednesday, Friday post like so many of you out there. But I AM determined to do it once a week. At least. To start off with.
Starting with this entry, I am going to post every Friday. The content of these posts? Well, that will just be a surprise! I'm full of random, it's just me, so you should all just be familiar with that! :)
Check in with me every Friday and I *promise* to have something for you!
And I'll see what I can do about a contest, which I've NEVER HAD BEFORE. Yay!!

In other news, I just finished reading Anna and the French Kiss by the amazing Stephanie Perkins. It's her debut novel and I can't even begin to tell you how much I adored this book! The second I finished I wanted to start over again.



My review? AWESOME. AMAZING. MAGICAL.

BUY. THIS. BOOK.

Even if you aren't a gushy romantic like I am, this book is fantastic. It's about independence and love and moving on and forgiveness and friendship...the themes are abundant and it's such a great read.
As if I didn't want to visit Paris enough as it is, this made me want to pack my bags and have my own little romantic adventure in the beautiful city.(Perhaps I should get myself a passport, eh?)
Not to mention(and this is kind of embarrassing)the fact that Anna's relationship with St. Clair echoes my own with someone very dear to me and I felt as though my own life were being played out before my eyes. My poor friend(who knows the situation)was bombarded by text messages with excerpts from the book that were me to a T. Except that I'm 29 and not 17...which is awkward...

Every once in a while, I find a story that inspires me to keep going with my own writing. I knew I wanted to improve my NaNo novel and since finishing Anna, my own ideas have been shooting out of the creative corners of my mind.
I can't wait to get to work!

P.S.

BUY.

THIS.

BOOK.

And enjoy. :)

Friday, December 3, 2010

Things I Learned From NaNo and Other Exciting News!



I won! Yay!!

So. NaNo is over and tonight I cleaned my apartment for the first time in a month. Let me just say...ew.
NaNo was one of the hardest things I've ever done because so much that could go wrong (besides my plot) went wrong.
BUT. I learned some stuff along the way.

1. YES. I can.

2. Consumption of beer is good for creativity.

3. Consumption of excessive amounts of wine is BAD for creativity. Well, it's REEEEAAALLLY good for it but not the next day when you open up your document and think to yourself, 'WTF is this crap? Who broke into my Word and typed up this nonsense???'
Yeah...

4. No one ever took this as seriously as I did so I was struggling to find writing time because I was too nice to turn down shopping/drinking/wedding offers. Because I didn't know how to express just HOW IMPORTANT this was to me.
Live and learn, I suppose.

5. I write best at the kitchen table with a cup of tea and complete silence all around me.

6. I am able to stay up until 5 AM and still make it through work the next day. Yay me. I might have fallen asleep on the floor in someone else's office but....(yes. This happened.)

A lot went wrong during the month of November but I can't wait until next year!


In other news:



I am SO EXCITED to participate in the second annual No Kiss Blogfest on January 2, 2011!! Last year's was a blast and I can't wait to do it again.

Head over to Frankie's page to sign up! Or if you don't want to sign up, be sure to bookmark her page so that you can read everyone else's posts!

And now that November is over...I can't wait to start reading again! :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

NaNo Oh No!



What do you do when you're already WAY too far behind on your NaNo manuscript and you're wondering why you're so full of the worst kind of suckiness but you're still trying to muddle through because by golly, you WILL make 50,000 words by November 30 if it KILLS you(which it might)and all of a sudden you think to yourself: 'If I had written this in first person, everything would make sense and I could do this exactly the way I had it planned in my head'.

Here's what you do: you smack yourself in the face with your hand and possibly any objects lying around that won't do any lasting damage to your face because you're newly single and who wants to date a chick who has an imprint of a stapler across her forehead, right?
Because I can't possibly go back and change everything into first person because I'm just that far behind so it would be stupid and that's what revisions are for AFTER you finish the first draft. Right?

So my question is: would you continue writing in third person simply because that's how you started or would you switch to first person because it's just RIGHT and you know you won't have to muddle through to the end anymore, it will just happen because it's meant to be that way?

WHAT, MY WRITING FRIENDS, SHOULD I DO???

And is anyone else having a nervous breakdown about NaNo? Seriously.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Things I Learned About Myself On Day One of NaNo




1. I have to pee every five minutes. Apparently, my bladder understands the need for procrastination.

2. I have restless leg syndrome. Who knew deadline writing could cause leg spasms??

3. Beer works almost as well as wine in terms of inducing creativity. Or just not actually caring what is being written....

4. This video? HilARious. And a great distraction from all things writing.



5. I'm sweating.

6. Writing is FUN when you haven't done it in almost a year...once you get the hang of it again.

7. Something in my apartment is burning, and I'm pretty sure it's my pants from the heat of my computer because it's been on for so long while I stare at things that say 'I pooted' and such and laugh loudly.

8. I have great friends who keep me on track and tell me to shut the ef up when I send random text messages about Cheese and pooting.

9. I wish I had chocolate.

10. I'm glad I don't have chocolate.

11. I can actually write two thousand words a night if I put my mind to it. And it's not all bad. :)

How is NaNo going for everyone else???