Sunday, April 17, 2011

N is for...

New Beginnings.

It's been a helluva year for me. 11 is my lucky number so I figured 2011 was going to be my year.

Turns out my strength is being tested pretty much on a daily basis. The bad news? I'm kinda stressed. The good news? I'm much stronger than I originally gave myself credit for.

I've spent this entire year so far trying my hardest to rectify a pretty big problem at work. (Not caused by me, by the way, but that didn't seem to matter in the end)
Friday was the worst of it and I barely had time to breathe between running between buildings and working with the president of the company to figure things out.

And at the end of the day, I heard these words: 'Thanks for all of your hard work this year, but we're going to have to terminate you'.


The worst part of the news was the word 'terminate'. Like I was a bug meant to be squashed beneath one of her alligator stiletto pumps. 'You must die'.
That sort of thing.

I'm broken hearted because after almost 12 years of working there, my coworkers were no longer coworkers. They ARE my family.
I can't imagine going more than a weekend without seeing each and every one of them.


After considering all of the crazy, bad, ridiculous things I've faced this year, I realized something: everything happens for a reason. I've always thought so. But for the first time in my life, I can finally see it for what it really means.

Without getting into too much detail, I can tell you that the ridiculous things I will be facing in the upcoming weeks are happening all at the same time for a REASON.
And I KNOW I will come out on the other side a stronger person.

I'm taking some time for myself for a little while...get my head clear and maybe take advantage of all this writing time I've suddenly received!
It's a blessing in disguise. A new beginning.
And as scary as the situation is, I'm so looking forward to it.

Have any of you dealt with anything you were afraid you'd never make it through and come out stronger on the other side? Tell me about it!


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about your job - that's a tough trial to make it through. Even moreso when you've put in so much hard work and you've become so close to your coworkers.

    It sounds like you've got a great perspective on it all, and I'm sure you'll come out on top ^_^ I'm on the tail end of something similar, and it's amazing how the bad and unexpected can end up.

  2. Things do happen for a reason. And losing your job is just a bump. Yes, it sucks. Yes, it's stressful, but with a positive attitude (like yours) you can get through anything. Big hugs! And chocolate~!

  3. I was in a very similar situation back in 2006. I got in a lot of trouble for two shifts, one I ran, one I was late for, and wound up resigning my post as a result of my actions. I remember walking around the grocery store aisle not sure of anything at that moment.

    Yet if I hadn't done so, I wouldn't have had the courage (or the event itself) to write about it in a writing test I took that set me on the path I'm now on towards publication. Everything does happen for a reason. I hope my plight inspires you during this time.

    Great N, and it's a pleasure to meet you!